Ugh….so it’s official. First snowfall in Indiana.
And my apartment is a hot ripe temperature of 63°F. I really don’t like the winter weather if you can’t already tell. It’s pretty, and fun to play in. It just sucks driving in the raging snowstorms that follow.
So….I got on the scale this morning. I was so devastated by the number I saw on the screen. 197 pounds. How did I let myself go like this? After the months of hard work and exercise I put in. I threw it all away in two years.
Laying in bed last night, I confessed to the husband how much I weighed and how unhappy I am with myself. Let me state know that my husband is an amazing man. He has always loved me no matter what I weighed or how I look. We’ve been through a lot together since we first started dating. My problem is that once we started dating I knew he didn’t really like to exercise, so I cut back. Then I had major knee surgery and I’ve never fully recovered.
Running used to be my favorite thing of all time. I can’t tell you enough of how much I loved running. When I quit soccer before my senior year of college I pursued running like it was the one thing I’d ever want to do. I have never been fast, I have never been good. That doesn’t matter to me anymore. I want so badly to run without the screws in my leg hurting. I want to run another half marathon and many more 5Ks/10Ks.
When I decided to drop the weight last time I got serious. I tracked everything I ate and worked out almost every day. These days I struggle greatly with both (obviously.) I’m nothing like the person I used to be. In some ways that’s good, but not when it comes to being healthy. These days I overindulge in all kinds of bad foods. The husband told me last night that if I made it to 150 pounds, then he would drop to 180. This was wonderful news considering how unhealthy we both are. So with a little more motivation, hopefully I can stay on track and make my goal.
For anyone who is reading this out there, what are your tips? Have you ever overcome serious injury/surgery to get back into sports? I’d love to hear about it!